This last year, I was struggling with the reality of God. I had so many questions I was never able to ask before, and as I was able to ask them, some more doubt crept in, Though it seems scary, God used it solely for His glory!
Judges 6:36:40: Then Gideon said to God, “If you will save Israel by my hand, as you have said, behold, I am laying a of wool on the threshing floor. If there is dew on the fleece alone, and it is dry on all the ground, then I shall know that you will save Israel by my hand, as you have said.” And it was so. When he rose early next morning and squeezed the fleece, he wrung enough dew from the fleece to fill a bowl with water. Then Gideon said to God, “Let not your anger burn against me; let me speak just once more. Please let me test just once more with the fleece. Please let it be dry on the fleece only, and on all the ground let there be dew.” And God did so that night; and it was dry on the fleece only, and on all the ground there was dew.
Through all of my questioning, I was encouraged to lay out a fleece before God, like Gideon. To ask God to show me He is real. I was given an example of a man who laid out a fleece and asked God to reveal himself to him by making it snow, and it did! (In Southern Cali.) But I decided that if I was going to ask God to reveal himself to me, it would have to be something really BIG!
My fleece was that God would show me He was real, and that He truly loves me, by healing my
friend. I wanted her to be off her medication, and the doctors say that all her blood levels were normal! I wanted to see a living miracle. I wasn’t going to tell anyone what I asked for, and I remember asking my friend “Do you think it can be something big, like really big?” Her answer was “I think so, I don’t think there is a certain requirement for what you ask.” So I continued to have Faith that God would heal her. I eventually told my friend what I prayed for, and the day I told her, she said she felt such a peace about it, that she quit taking her medication! I was scared for her when she first shared that with me, but also continued trusting the Lord. I just knew she would be healed. She shared a verse with me one day a verse that the Lord gave her in a very awesome way! (You know one of those I-am-going-to-open-the-Bible-and-whatever-is-there-let it-speak-to-me-verses. Ha) It is a verse I will never forget, especially with the memories of that day. The verse is, Isaiah 7:11 (The Message) “Ask for a sign from God. Ask anything. Be extravagant. Ask for the moon!” And, that is just what I did!
2 months later, my friend was still off of her medication, and feeling great! She had never been off of it for more than 3 days w/ out feeling the effects and having to go back on it. Her doctor told her she would be on it for the rest of her life.
Then, something terrible happened. She had a miscarriage, that is one of the things that can happen when she is off of her medication. Well, I was feeling really bad, like it was my fault, I gave her false hope and then this happened. I thought God didn’t answer my prayer fully. She was still off her medication, doing better, but not miraculously healed. I continued to pray.
Nearly 3 months later, I called my friend, and she told me she got blood work done and was still off her medication, and all her blood levels were 100% normal! WOW!!! He heard me! He answered my prayer, He loves me and He is soooo real!!! Praise God that He answered my prayer, He did not have to! I was asking the God of the universe the creator of all things, to ‘prove’ that He is real. What in the world! BUT, He knows my heart, and my heart was longing so bad to see this in my own life, up close and personal. I am still in awe that God heard me!
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