Email to a friend; turned blog :)

So, it's almost 2am and I can not sleep. I know it seems crazy that I haven't been sleeping, but for some reason the Lord is keeping me up longer and letting me sleep less. It is ok, and I am doing actually pretty well with it. There are so many things on my heart tonight, that I feel like I need to talk about, but for now, I will share just one. Tonight as I am lying awake praying, I am overwhelmed with an oppression for all the hurt this world has to face. I know I will never understand why horrible things have to happen to babies, children, teens, adults, everyone, it is just crazy, but I do know that God has everything in His hands. I strive to continue trusting that each day as I see just how disgusting this world is. Why is there not more Christians willing to fight for the people who need Christ? Why do we as Christians, just feel safer in our (as I have heard so often lately) "boxes" the ones in our "boxes" are fine, of course, let's continue fellow-shipping and putting our families first, as God calls us to do this but isn't there something we could do to reach out more. To spread the Gospel! Our role here is not to feel "safe" it is to put our lives on the line to reach out to the sick, the unsaved, the lonely the hungry. I know everything has it's place, but I am really feeling more and
more everyday that I am beginning to feel safer, looking for a box, to hide in, and that is not me! That is not who God has called me to be! I obviously have a heart for teens, I always have. But I also have a heart for the homeless children the mother who lost her children, for the child with out a father, mother or both, for the mean old lady who won't smile for the young boy who acts out in class and talks about weapons and blowing stuff up only to turn around and pray with a woman who lost her husband, the ones who most say, never have a chance in the real world, the list goes on and on. I need wisdom to figure out what exactly I am to be doing, and I need accountability to put my children before all of this. Please pray for wisdom with me to figure out where and what God really wants for me where I am. What is best for my family, and truly for me too, I seldom think of that,(helping me) and I think it is ok, but obviously as we know, we need to take care of ourselves as well, as our bodies are the temple of the Holy Spirit. I need to take some time to work through a few things, but in that I do not want to stop being used by God where I can be used. In James it says "If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do."

I know there are things in your life that you want/need wisdom for right now, there always is, no matter who you are. :) But if we remember these verses, we never have to wonder or worry, because God will give us the wisdom we need if we ask Him, weather through another person or a book, or just through what He shows us personally. It is an awesome reminder that we never have to fear not having wisdom in any areas of our lives. We just need to have faith w/ out a doubt! OK easier said than done, but I am praying for wisdom for you, for your relationships, your children, your finances, your ministries, friendships, etc...and I know God will be faithful to provide. I will encourage you to do the same, ask Him for the wisdom you need.
I also am going to pray for wisdom in my life, and if you want to, would you please pray for wisdom in my life as well.
There are so many new things happening in my life, opportunities to minister to others, to share the gospel with them, to show them love and let them know who that love is actually from. I know I can not do everything, and I can not save the world, in fact I can not save anyone, only God can! That is what is so amazing!!! He uses us in the lives of people, so we can praise Him and shout Glory to God in the Highest!! How can He get the glory He deserves if "Christians" are sitting comfortably inside their nice air conditioned boxes!