Just another day

Today has been a rough day with my 17 year old daughter. I lost my temper a little bit but quickly regained my cool. Sometimes it is so hard not to react to the circumstances, and the words she so often uses to hurt me, or anyone for that matter.
I bought T-bone steak to cook for her boyfriends first time over for dinner. His car overheated on the way into town and so when he got here, I let them take my car. I was a bit nervous, but I trusted him to be careful. When they got back, my daughter was so upset that this town is boring and there is nothing to do here. She went to her room and locked the door. I tried to talk to her and reason with her, but she began to cut me down, and then talk about how her life sucks and she has no life etc...She kept saying there was no point in anything, and at that point, there is nothing I can do. She started calling me crazy and controlling and worse things, as I shared with her that this life is not about her, that all she thinks about is her and her fleshly desires and that when everything is going fine, she is so sweet and kind, but as soon as something doesn’t go her way or the way she wants it to go, she is nasty. She immediately went down the pity party road as she always does and started saying things like, I guess I am selfish then, if you say so, it is all about me, and it always will be. I KNOW I shouldn’t expect any more from her as I do not see fruit as her being a true believer, and it does not justify my thoughts or actions, but I just get so hurt sometimes that I can not always control my anger with her. There was so much more to this day that made it hard, but this is just a tiny insight to what a normal day with her is like. I wish you could be here to witness this and see what it is like, it makes it so hard on my kids as well, and I don’t always know what to do about it. If you want to pray for my relationship with my daughter, please do, I really would appreciate it. Thank you so much for listening to me.

Other than this, today has been pretty good. I woke up, gave my 2 littles a bath, read to them. Watched a long promised family movie with them, baked bread, made spaghetti for lunch filled out my long overdue service logs from May, while the kids had some quiet reading time to themselves. Left to turn in service logs, my dear friend Cali (who by chance happens to be my 2nd grade teacher)stopped by to see how the house is looking, had an amazing dinner. (T-bone, mashed potatoes, corn on the cob and home made bread!) Prayed with the kids, got them into bed, took a bath in my lovely oversized tub, while reading crazy love with some light worship music and a glass of wine. So, even in the midst of trials, God gives us time to rest, Thank you Lord for all you are doing in my life, please help me to continue being joyful, and loving my family as a mother, and leading my family as the head of the house, with you as our covering. Amen
P.S.
God is so faithful to provide! I just found out that Socstc has a girl that needs to be placed for 2 months, she is 16 and pregnant. I will be getting paid a substancial amount of money to care for her for these 2 months or more depending on what God has! Why do I doubt Him!!! Praising God for His sovereign hand in all of our lives! Keep trusting Him! Nothing is last minute with Him!