Well, Today is the day we were suppose to leave on our trip across the states and into Canada. I had been looking forward to doing this for a looong time, almost a whole year. I am so sad that it didn’t work out, and I miss my dear friends more than ever.
I started off the day by talking to my cousin for over an hour, She lives in Washington. We were going to be at her house for a couple of days before heading off to Yellowstone National Park for Ryan’s Birthday. It would have been great for us to meet each others family.
We had a really awesome conversation, and we both feel the same way in a lot of areas. I wish we could have seen her too, maybe we can make it to her Baby Shower in August though!
After that, I woke the kids up and headed to the Children’s Festival in Jacksonville! We had a wonderful time! The kids make sand hands every year, but this year, I did too! The way we did it was really awesome! We all 3 did it together rather than individually. I put a picture on her for you to see. We also did many other crafts, and Ryans favorite; we panned for gold!
I tried to stop at the Jacksonville Childrens Museum, but quickly found that they are permanently closed due to lack of funds. :( I remember going there on school field trips when I was little, and I loved it!
We continued on our journey, stopped to see a cute kitten, went to lunch, and then the kids went swimming at Grandmas while I went home and got some stuff done. The kids wanted to stay with Grandma for dinner, so I agreed and tried to spend some quality time with Karisa.
This time quickly turned into if Karisa doesn’t get her way, everyone is miserable.
I seriously can not believe the things she said to me today, they hurt more than things she has ever said to me, she was so nasty and I don’t understand at all. It all began and felt like it would never end, over a redbull vs rockstar. Redbull was cheaper, she grabbed a rockstar, I wondered why she did, when she usually drinks redbulls anyway, and she threw the rockstar into the cold fridge, yelled at me told me I was crazy, and stomped out the door.
Some of the appropriate things I can share on her that she says, are things like this: You are stupid, you are dumb, do you enjoy torturing me with your presence, I am done with you, I don’t care about you or your family, let me live my life and you live yours, I don’t even like spending time with you because I hate you, you make my life miserable, etc...on and on, and so much worse. Today I wish someone was there just to witness it, because to everyone else she is so polite and sweet and caring etc...it is just so hard. I love her though and that is why I continue to have her in my home. I truly love her as my own daughter.
Soooo with all of this, my day has been kept pretty busy with not much time to think about not going on this trip I had planned for my family. I guess God really knows what we need, even if it is hard! ;)
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