So, I am having a hard time as to what to do/say when my kids come home and share with me the things that go on while they are at their Dad’s. Of course I would want to know, and don’t ever want to ask them not to share, but sometimes it really hurts. Also, there are times when things are happening that should not be happening in anyway. For example: My son shared with me that hid Daddy said the Bible says it’s ok to do things before you are married (kiss, spend the night etc..) but you said the Bible says not to. Thankfully when I asked my son “Well, buddy what do you think about that?” He said, “Well, I believe what you say the Bible says over what Daddy says, because you act more like you believe the Bible.” At that point I didn’t really know what to say right away because I was blessed, shocked, and saddened all at the same time. While blessed to hear my son say that, I was so sad that He can not at this point get that from his father, which is obviously a huge desire for a Christian single mother. So, I believe I ended telling him we could look it up and He could read about it for himself, and research it. It has been a little difficult because of His age and the appropriateness of the conversations, but we are doing alright. This is just a little example of something that happened, but the almost daily struggles I face with Him and His Girlfriend are so hard. How do I continue teaching my children what is right, when t contradicts so much of what their Dad is teaching them, it’s to them almost like I am dishonoring him by saying he is wrong. I want my children to honor their Dad, so maybe I should begin teaching them the difference between respect and honor..hmm..
I wish so badly that their Daddy would want to honor God in His daily life, and learn what that means. I wish that he would want to be a leader, and a discipler of his children. The kids and I do pray for him everyday, and I still have hope that someday, he will look up and realize the yuck he is believing in so many areas. Lord, I lift him up to you now, and if he doesn’t have a relationship with you, that is the first and most important thing I want to pray for. Also Lord, please give me patience when talking with him about the kids, and wisdom to know how to lead a guide my children to honor most importantly, You, and through that, learn to honor their earthly Father as well.